Gerson Thailand Cancer Therapy Grandpas Organic Farm Chiang Dao

What a fucking week….  what a month.

one day im gonna look back at this and thank myself for the living hell I am going through.  Im gonna beat this fucking disease…..  Im gonna have to stay in hell for another year or so to do so.  My weight is down to 157 pounds.

Im startin to feel like im on the Ghandi diet, not the Gerson therapy.

I look like a holocaust survivor (before they went back to eating again)

Im back on the castor oil again.  Today was another castor day.  Ive been shitting like a maniac all day.  I cant believe that 4 months have come and gone.  I think in the next four months some dramatic changes will occur.  Dramatic changes have already occured.  I can feel my body ridding of this horrible bacterias and other unwanted toxins all day long.

I believe my fate is to heal my body.  I think I deserve it after all this bullshit.  This is 13 hours a day everyday now.  Thats 1,547 hours I have taken to heal my body.  Thats 1,190 carrot juices…….   Thats 400 coffee enemas…… do you know how many hours I have been sitting on the shitter lately?  Do you know how many shit tickets I go through?

I know I complain alot on this blog but the reality is that the fight goes on, and I am kicking some ASS!

Ive been spending alot of time in bed.  Too weak physically and mentally.  Still very angry at the world, that never seems to change.   Im looking for a new place to live along with my sanity.

Our chicken that had a few eggs has dissapeared.  A couple of her eggs were eaten by snakes, so I have attempted to salvage the three remaining eggs.  I made a little egg incubator from a cooler and a light bulb.  Here is a picture.  As you can see we already have mogwai here thinking she is the new mother hen.

I have experienced what appears to be a sign of my first real healing reaction.  Yes I am excited, but I really feel like hell.  I have experienced 72 hours of fevers, horrible stomach problems, diarrhea, mental anguish, and a constant sickly headache.  My blood is so full of toxins it feels like a ran marathon the day before when I awake in the morning.   I am aching all over. 

I have decided to do the castor oil again like I should have been doing before.  This morning it was back to 5 am 3 tablespoons.  I take the castor oil with a half a cup of coffee, some honey, and some citrus.  I try to lay back down but cannot fall asleep.  The castor oil will not digest and simply clear your system fully.   This castor oil will help move the toxins out of my body at a faster rate to avoid absorption. 

I cannot wait till this therapy ends up working in the end.  I will like to prove wrong all the naysayers and the sheep who believe otherwise.  Of course the sheep are good for manual labor….. I just cant believe how brainwashed people are when it comes to health.  Our society is a pathetic form of life.  Luckily in the end of 2012 the oceans will rise high enough to rid this place of such creatures.  I just think that 4 years cant come soon enough

The Thai Buddhist Lent begins today. I wonder what I will give up for lent that I havnt already……. Their Lent is for 3 months. Already got that in the bag too…..

I purchased alot of organic goodies this past week. Finally found some organic apples imported from new zealand. So I bought an entire box of about 80 of em. They cost about the same back home about 70 US dollars. The apple is nice to mix in the carrot juice to sweeten up. I also purchased the 50 kg of organic mangosteen which I had shipped special from the north. This was close to a hundred bucks. Today, was the organic market again so I bought my usual carrots there as well. After, I get a phone call from another place saying they have my 50 kg of organic carrots as well. This was another hundred dollars. Needless to say, I have plenty of carrots for the week. I would rather have too many, than not enough.

This therapy is a never ending game of needing something “organic” or chemical free. Distilled water, flaxseed oil, sterile distilled water, rubber gloves, enema buckets, iodine, materials for your juicer……. IT NEVER NEVER STOPS. This can be a real pain in the ass as you find yourself setting out to buy a list of things that you need almost every day when you feel like shit. It is very helpful to have someone else do all the running around for you. I dont want to fall asleep at the wheel, or have a mental breakdown and slap some china man in the face. (although it is tempting here)

If I had to estimate how much longer I have to do this therapy…….. Its hard to say, very hard to say. I think I have a long way to go. My body is fighting well, but a large uncertainty remains.

I hate writing in this stupid fucking blog. I dont like to report bad news, I never have. I like to make good news happen. Im still one angry bastard, but thats what makes the special person I am.

Had some assistance in the circulation problem in my feet. I was moving a box of mangosteen and stepped on a scorpion. It was a little one and it stung the bottom of my foot. Therefore, making it a bit more difficult to walk on top of the pain in my legs already. I guess I was due for a nice blunder. Perhaps it will do some good for my immune system like the honey bee stings used to do for me. ( I have tried bee venom therapy in the past) The scorpion venom is quite a rush, but is not deadly of course.

Still battling dehydration issues, although it seems maintainable. Bacterial die offs seem most apparent in the morning when I first awake. This is when the pain is greatest.
Ordered some more organic carrots today. I would say I am going through about 10 kg of carrots per day. (22 pounds a a day)

It has rained most of the day today and I have spent most of day napping. My juicer help lady wanted to leave early today at 2pm. I dont mind when they ask for that, this job requires 12 hours everyday……. I think its hard…….. its hard just preparing this therapy as well!